a few months ago i found myself crying in the bathroom of my dorm room. i was with my sister and just found out i was 19, single, and pregnant. i had been going through a bad breakup and had just started seeing my ex about 3 weeks prior. when we dated, we had talked about what would happen if i were to get pregnant, abortion was always the option. i have always been very pro-choice and thought that decision would be a no brainer. until i found myself in that situation. i told my ex, my parents, and he told his parents as well. exactly a week later, i found myself sitting in the clinic alone waiting to get the pills for a chemical abortion. at that time i was just over 4 weeks pregnant. i am now a few months post abortion and have found myself consumed with regret and constantly wondering “what if?”, these things are slowly consuming me. i just wish i had someone who stopped me and told me to slow down and think about what i was doing before i jumped into terminating the pregnancy. if so i would either be more at peace with my decision or not dreading when my due date roles around next summer.