things just aren\u2019t what they are in the movies.<\/p>\n
i kept dreaming he would show up at my doorstep with flowers and beg me not to do it.
\ni was praying he would ask me to be a mother to our baby.
\ni waited for him to say, \u201ccongratulations, i\u2019m so happy. we\u2019re going to be parents.\u201d
\ninstead, i was dumped, thrown out, and asked to take care of this on my own.<\/p>\n
i was the one who had to make the appointment.
\ni was the one who took off work.
\ni was the one who paid for it. he didn\u2019t throw me a cent.
\ni was the one who had to go through this.
\ni cried, i bled, i threw up, and i cried again.
\nhe even had the nerve to say, \u201cthis is hard for me as well.\u201d<\/p>\n
one day, i will thank myself for doing this.
\none day, i\u2019ll know i made the right decision.
\none day, i will have my ph.d., which would have been impossible with a baby.
\none day, i might even have babies and find a man won\u2019t abandon me when things get tough.<\/p>\n
for now, i have gratitude for the logical decision i made, the nurses and doctors who cared for me without judgement, and friends who stood by me. when i think back on my decision, it\u2019s not something i\u2019m proud of and as a young girl, i never thought i would be in this situation. i don\u2019t know when i\u2019ll feel whole again or if i\u2019ll ever be able to forget about my baby whenever i hear an infant cry, see baby clothes in the store, or watch a pregnant woman walk by. i always wanted to be a mother, ever since i was a little girl.<\/p>\n
nonetheless, things just aren\u2019t what they are in the movies.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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