i was 19 and sophomore in college when i got pregnant. i had only been with my boyfriend for a few months, and i couldn’t see him as a father. i wanted my child to have a father that was better than the one i had. my boyfriend wasn’t ready. neither was i.<\/p>\n
i didn’t tell him i was pregnant. i wasn’t comfortable enough with him to discuss something like that. it was my first serious sexual relationship, and i didn’t want it to be characterized by an unplanned pregnancy. i wanted to keep my good memories. i felt like this was burden i could carry on my own.<\/p>\n
my best friend wired me $400 so i could pay for the abortion. i walked through protesters on my way into the clinic, and once i got in i was shuffled through the assembly line of required services. in many ways, this was the worst part. it felt like they were just herding cattle. i have never felt more scared in my life.<\/p>\n
i’ll never forget being in the recovery room and witnessing so much sadness around me and feeling it myself at the same time. i’ve never been in a more heartbreaking environment.<\/p>\n
the aftermath was saddening, disappointing, and frustrating. i was mourning for this child i could have had and the life i could have led, but i felt like i had no right to grieve because i had made the decision to have the abortion. it was no accident. i felt guilty for having any negative feelings about my abortion because i didn’t want to satisfy the pro-life movement. i wanted to be like gloria steinem, i wanted my abortion to be a liberating experience. it wasn’t. but i also don’t regret it. i’m starting to learn now that all these feelings are okay.<\/p>\n
i’m grateful to have had the opportunity to make the decisions that were right for me, i just wish there wasn’t so much unnecessary shame attached to them.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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