it was 1983. i had just enrolled in college. i was fit, happy and excited to be in a real university setting at age 22. i had delayed my education because i was originally pretty irresponsible right out of high school, but now i had a steady boyfriend, i had worked for several years, and my parents were supportive.<\/p>\n
i was studying biology so my first class several times a week was a zoology lab at 8:30. i was taking phys. ed., running and weight lifting, and i was proud to be physically fit for the first time in my life.<\/p>\n
i started feeling strange a few weeks after starting school, mostly tired and feeling like i wanted to cry. i was confused. some days when i was running i had a pain in my stomach. some days i couldn’t make it back to my car without sitting down on the sidewalk, exhausted. i would burst into tears, sobbing because i didn’t think i could get back up to walk the rest of the way to my car. i started throwing up every morning exactly at nine o’clock. i remember running out of zoology lab to the bathroom.<\/p>\n
eventually, i went to the university clinic and asked to see one of the psychiatric nurses. i said i couldn’t stop crying, and i was just upset all the time. she took me down to the women’s clinic and they said they were going to give me a pregnancy test. i was confused. a pregnancy test? i had been having unprotected sex since i was 16, and i had never been pregnant. i was sterile! they insisted.<\/p>\n
a few days later, someone called my home and asked me to come in to the clinic. i was given the news that i was pregnant. i was asked what i wanted to do. i had only one answer, i want an abortion.<\/p>\n
i had known since i was 14 years old that i would never be a mother. i hated children and i knew i was mentally ill. i had been to numerous sessions with psychiatrists with no diagnosis but i knew without a doubt that i would abuse any child i had and possibly, maybe probably, kill it. there was no choice, only one option.<\/p>\n
fortunately, my boyfriend already had one child by another woman and did not want any more children. he agreed and he put up half the money; my parents put up the other half. it was done. i am grateful to this day.<\/p>\n
i im世界杯2022亚洲预选赛b组 tely had my tubes tied so that it would never happen again. i had to have two doctors sign off on the procedure because of my young age, but i managed to convince them that i never, ever wanted children. i knew i should never have them. i was right, and i have never changed my mind nor do i have any regrets.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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