i got pregnant when i was 19. i thought i was sterile. just low self esteem.

i didn't even know i was pregnant till i was five months along.

on february 3, 2015, i had an abortion.

i am about to turn 29 in about a month. this is my 3rd pregnancy, but no children.

the first 16 years of my life were something out of a lifetime channel movie; alcoholic, misogynist, abusive stepfather, enabling and psychologically damaged mother, and a spoiled, bratty, but obedient younger sister.

i was an adult, married woman of 25. we had just had a baby. this baby was not growing and was hospitalized at 3 months.