i had abortions. not as a means of birth control...i tried to not get pregnant and was surprised i did.

but, i didn't. after the counseling session was complete i was sent back into the lobby for them to prepare everything. i never thought this would be me.

i was just graduated from michigan state university and i found out that i was pregnant after being on the birth control pill. i was on antibiotics at the time for a stomach ulcer and for a uti and was not warned about back up birth control.

after having an ultrasound i found out i was 9 weeks along, could not take the pill safely, and had to have the procedure done the following week.

there was no way we could afford a child -- as a graduate assistant, i was the primary bread winner and insurance provider, both of which would end weeks before my due date when i graduated with my master's degree.

when i found myself pregnant at age 45 1/2 i couldn't face another miscarriage with the subsequent d & c. i terminated the pregnancy and felt that i had at least some control over my body.