i have been married nearly 5 years and with my husband for nearly 10. i am a cancer survivor and i have neurofibromitosis, a genetic condition that makes me predisposed to have tumors form on my nerves.
shortly after my husband and i met, i had surgery on my cervix, and was told by my gynecologist and several other doctors that i would have difficulty getting pregnant, and if i did get pregnant, i would have trouble carrying a child to term. he and i agreed then (when i was only 19) that we would live a childless life together. i am so afraid of passing on my genetic condition or, even worse, not being able to be there for my family because i am ill. my husbands’ mother died when he was a child from a blood clot due to the hormones in her birth control, and since we met i have not taken hormonal birth control. we would, and still do, always use condoms.
shortly before we married, my husband and i discovered that we were often having sex at night while asleep. i didn’t notice it until i woke up one night in the middle of intercourse with him. it was scary and exciting all at the same time, but i realized there was a huge flaw in our method of using condoms for birth control. however, having been told i would have fertility 世界杯赛程2022赛程表中国 , and knowing we had missed using protection a few times in the past, i didn’t think much of it. besides, the occasional nightly surprise encounters were helping our sex life, which had been hurting up until that point. finding out i was pregnant was a huge shock. i had no idea i was pregnant because i couldn’t even pinpoint when it could have happened…it was likely we were both asleep during the encounter. fortunately, i am very in tune with my body and was only 5 weeks along when i found out.
to top it all off, during the time i didn’t know i was pregnant, i had been drinking heavily. i mean very heavily. i hate to admit it to myself, but it is the truth. i would never have been able to live with myself if i kept the baby and he/she was negatively affected by my alcohol consumption.
my husband saw how upset and scared i was, and he was there for me through a very hard decision. we have a wonderful relationship and are financially stable, but i have very realistic expectations when it comes to my health and what my body can handle. my ob/gyn agreed that the pregnancy would be highly difficult for me, and that she would support my decision either way. as hard a decision as it was, i decided to end the pregnancy.