i was molested by my step father from the time i was four years old.
at the age of thirteen he brought home a pregnancy test.he told me to “go into the bathroom and read the instructions, it will tell you how to do it”. so, i did. it came back positive. i was in shock. i didn’t know what to do. he told me he would commit suicide, if that’s what i wanted. then i “could tell everyone he raped me”. i told him this was not an option. he said he would ‘fix this’. a few days later he told me he knew a doctor that could “scrape my uterus and we wouldn’t have to worry anymore”. i didn’t feel i really had any choice. i was only thirteen. i was scared. he took me to the clinic where they interviewed me and asked if i knew who the father was. i lied. i told them it was my boyfriend. i didn’t have a boyfriend. i couldn’t even come up with a name when they asked me. they started the procedure and i can remember the nurse telling me to count down from 100. the next days at school i had to fake an illness as my excuse for taking the pills. i waited three more years to tell my mom what had happened. he went to jail for 26 years. i am now happily married for thirteen years with a beautiful ten year old girl and a loving eight year old boy.