i was young, wild, in college but, zigged when i should’ve zagged and was in no way ready to bring a life into the world; and be responsible for it so, i was thankful for the option  and having the right to choose. i was all of 22 or 23, i think and vowed to be more careful from there on out. i was, until 10 years later and debated over and over until the appointment. but, having been a party animal on a regular basis did not want to grow a life in a polluted body so, there i was at the hospital again doing what i felt was the responsible thing. i can’t say that i regret those decisions i just feel at least i was honest enough with myself to know that i did not want to be a mother and still don’t.