we had only just started to see each other and felt it wasn’t the right time to bring a child into the world when we didn’t have stable jobs or somewhere to live. the second abortion was when i was 26 and we both were working and owned our own house, unfortunately i wanted that baby but my husband wasn’t sure and i guess i wanted him to be happy to i went along with the abortion but there was a long wait and i was nearly 15 weeks by the time of my abortion. now i have three wonderful children and i often wonder what life would have been like if i had kept my first child, i have massive regrets about both my abortions as i know now that everything would have been perfectly fine if i had kept my babies. unfortunately, i haven’t had counseling and i think i need it as it’s starting to eat away at me inside just wondering about my babies that i got rid of so flippantly.