i barely had enough to survive. i know deep down it was the right choice but it did come with regret. i was only a few weeks pregnant. i had a choice to look or not to look at the sonogram. i chose to look at the sonogram. the technician said it was very early in the pregnancy. it looked like a grape. but i haven’t had a night where i didn’t cry to sleep. some days i feel so alone. i can’t move from my bed. i don’t eat. i don’t shower. i lay in the dark looking out the window. i pray to god to forgive me. but i knew it was the best choice.