a month later when i found out i was pregnant, i knew i couldn’t keep it. as a trans person, it’s just not safe to be pregnant, especially given how all available pregnancy resources are for women. on top of the fact that i would be having my rapist’s baby, i would have to somehow figure out a way to raise a baby while still going to school. i felt disgusted that with myself for letting this guy rape me and then disgusted with my body for betraying me and allowing him to get me pregnant. i simply wanted it out of my body as fast as i could. 2 weeks after i found out, i went alone and got an abortion. i was 6 weeks pregnant. i’m so glad i did it. while i want to be a parent someday, i don’t want to raise my rapists baby.