i was in a committed relationship and we were using condoms at the time. well, one of them ripped so i used plan b. both failed. i caught the pregnancy extremely early, so early in fact that the first time i went to the clinic i wasn’t far enough along for the medical abortion. the staff at the clinic was nice, kinda rushed, but when there are about 35-40 women in their it’s understandable.

the thing that stands out to me the most was that there was this family outside protesting of course with gross pictures of what a “8 week old fetus” looked like when the fetus was way over 8 weeks. my best friend and boyfriend went with me the first time when they said i wasn’t far enough along, but the second time he couldn’t come because he was away at college too far away so my best friend went with me.

the second appointment was a lot quicker, got an ultrasound then took the first pill in office then my boyfriend came for the following day to take the second pill. he held me the entire time (except for me needing to get up to change my pad) and the whole process wasn’t that painful. they gave me 800mg ibuprofen which helped a lot. the cramps weren’t that bad and i was only 6 weeks, 1 day at the time so honestly i only bled for about a week, slightly heavier than the first day of my period.

i think the thing that hit me the most was my boyfriend’s family was extremely religious (he went to a private christian college) so i felt like the reason i got the abortion was so that they would never know we were having premarital sex. and on top of that, my boyfriend didn’t 100% support me. he knew it’s what had to be done, but when we later broke up i realized that the abortion may have been a huge reason why.

emotionally it’s been hard, because i knew my due date and it was only a few weeks ago and it’s crazy to think that i could have a child right now but i don’t. some days are harder than others, and some days i wonder if god hates me but at the end of the day i wouldn’t change my decision for anything.