i just turned 20 on christmas eve. my period was 12 days late and i waited until the 27th to take a pregnancy test. i looked quickly and noticed the line, i washed my hands called my friend into the bathroom, and she looked at it. i started laughing until i sat down, it hit me. i was pregnant. i called my sister she told me not to worry, everything will be okay she was there for support.

i messaged my ex boyfriend the following day, letting him know that i took a test and it was positive. first thing out of his mouth was “are you okay” i cried i didn’t know what to do. he offered for me to go see him and talk so i did.

it was hard seeing him and knowing we had a connection, i was carrying his baby. we sat down and talked. we knew we couldn’t afford a child. i was in college, he just wasn’t capable of having a child. so, we both agreed on an abortion.

i still love him to this day, he was abusive, physically, emotionally, and verbally. but its the connection.

i am happy where i am today, i regret it but it’s what is best.