i was 20 years old and dating the love of my life… we got pregnant and were terrified but were coming to terms. he was in a prestigious school in a large city a few hours away. we had just about accepted the news at 10 weeks when i went in for an ultrasound and found out that we had a missed miscarriage (the baby did not survive but my body did not expel it). the overwhelming sense of calm was what really tipped me off… i was not ready. he was very upset and made me feel guilty for not being more upset… soon after he sabotaged my birth control and i fell pregnant again. at this point i was considering leaving him but suddenly felt trapped. i told him what i was going to do and he begged me not to. i went to a private clinic and had the procedure done. everyone was very nice, even when i knocked my cup of pee all over everywhere walking from the restroom to the exam room. i live in a state where i was required to view the ultrasound, but it did not deter me. i knew what i wanted. the procedure was not bad at all, but the medication i had to take for the next few days made my moods unpredictable and i cried a lot. we are no longer in contact but he still tells people about the “terrible” thing i did. 7 years later, i am still happy about the choice i made.