i had just ended my 3 year relationship with my highschool sweetheart.

i thought i would be marrying this guy and when i met the man i was pregnant with i thought i was escaping my problems. i thought it was just going to be a fling. i knew he was married but he said it was a forced marriage because his wife had become pregnant and he was going to divorce her. time passed and i notice it was all a lie we were always secretive about us and will only see each other when it was convenient for him.

at some point in the relationship i knew i was done with it at first it was ok what we had because after my previous relationship i didn’t want nothing serious but i was ready to move on to the next level of our relationship after almost a 1 year and half with him and he said he couldn’t. i decided to ended it and he didn’t want to, he insisted we would work it out somehow. i manage to stay away from him for about 2 months but again he seduced me and i caved in after that we continue to see each other in secret, i knew i was doing wrong and i wanted to end what we had but i couldn’t. i had developed a connection to him and desire that was beyond my control, i was on birth control but when i left him the first time i stopped it and never went back on it. i never imagine i was going to get pregnant with him and when i missed my period i thought i was just late but when 2 weeks passed and i did a pregnancy test to confirm what i was hoping was not happening to me, i broke down. i was 22 and there was no way i was ready to have a child, financially i was stable and i knew the child will be missing nothing but mentally i was still a child myself and was in no condition to raise this child by myself. i schedule an appointment to get abortion the following week. i did all my research and knew i could get a medical abortion since i was only 4 weeks , when i had my sonogram done to see how far i was in the pregnancy i found out i was having twins. i was scared but i knew i couldn’t bring these babies into the world without a father. i had my abortion and yes there was pain lots of it but i know for me it was the right thing to do. i hated this man and blamed him at first but now after a few weeks have passed i accepted what i now know was both our faults him for lies and me for allowing him.