the first time i got pregnant i felt like my life was over. i felt like my heart went down to my knees. but, i knew i was not ready to have a child.

i have been with my boyfriend for over 4 years i know he would be a great father for my kids but i am not sure if he is who i want to be the father of my child. after finding out about my first pregnancy, i decided to get the pills for the medical abortion. miraculously, the day i decided to take the first pill i start to bleed heavily with severe cramps. i was having a miscarriage. i felt like god did not want me to carry that guilt in my soul… now i got pregnant again, i feel so stupid, like again?? why? of course i know why.. but i mean why did i let this happen again? didn’t i learn from my first experience?
this time i am having the medical abortion and i am so scared of the pain, the side effects. but this is what i have to do.