i was a 22 year-old college senior. i had been on the pill since i was 17 and i was pretty used to it. the guy that i was seeing and i broke up in november and in december went home for winter break.

i got my period after thanksgiving so i was waiting for it again late december/beginning of january but when it never came i suspected something was up. i didn’t want to go to the doctor when i was home because my parents would have known, so i waited until i got back to my college town in california. i went to the doctor and we did a pregnancy test, when the ob gyn walked in she asked me if i had already taken one at home and i said i had not. she told me it was positive and that we were going to do an ultrasound next, which is when she told me i was 14 weeks pregnant. i think i looked so frightened, because that next thing she said was that it would be okay but i would have to have it removed surgically because it was already too far along. i scheduled my procedure for 2 weeks later. i went in, they put me under anesthesia and i woke up a couple hours later in the resting room. i only told my friend who was picking me up about my abortion because the doctor required i had someone i knew drive me home from the hospital. this all happened in february 2015 and it is now almost may and i am about to graduate from one of the best universities in the world, so i am glad i did what i did. i just question myself on whether or not i should have told my ex-boyfriend about what happened. i sure he would have been supportive but i just felt scared about talking to him when this was all happening and i am afraid it is too late now. i never thought i would be one of those people who have a secret, but that is exactly where i find myself right now. this was the most stressful and painful situation i have ever been involved in and i will take every precaution to never have to go through it again.