i’m a freshman in college, 18 years old and had no idea what i’d gotten myself into. it was late fall and as football season winded down i met a nice guy.

the night we met ended in our first time having sex and our relationship continued for a couple of months on that basis. we hung out, we talked, we had sex, we even lived in the same dorm. it was fun, a new experience for the both of us, having a partner so attractive and so interested.

honestly i think i was the first girl to overwhelm him with so much attention. but as time went on i knew our relationship was going nowhere and he’d pledged a frat and spent a lot of time drinking so i began to distance myself. christmas break came and i was terribly sick. i thought maybe it was the flu because after a while things subsided. i’d always had gastro 世界杯赛程2022赛程表中国 so when the symptoms came back i went to see my gastro doctor hoping he could offer me some relief. he scheduled me for an endoscopy to check on my esophagus and when i went in for the pre-op they gave me a pregnancy test as a precautionary measure. i went to school and mid-day they called me back with a positive result. i was heartbroken. i’d had the sex talk, i’d used condoms, i thought i was protected. it was ash wednesday so i went to mass and cried through the whole thing. i went to the women’s resource center after and there i got in contact with planned parenthood where i got a second pregnancy test the following day. again it came back positive, and at that point i instinctively knew what i wanted to do. i scheduled my abortion, it was set for two weeks later. i sat on the positive results for a week before i had told him. it had been weeks since i’d seen or heard from him and the one time i had asked him about what he wanted if i got pregnant he told me, “a girl.” so with that in mind i was terrified to say anything in fear he would argue with me. i’m on full scholarship at my university, having a baby would’ve meant dropping out and working since my family can barely support themselves. everything i’d worked for was about to go out the window. but eventually i got up the nerves and told him. he told me he would support any decision i made, that it was up to me. so i kept my appointment and when the day came and was over with i felt im世界杯2022亚洲预选赛b组 te relief. after that passed depression set in. i’ve struggled with it before so it wasn’t completely new but it was a lot harder this time around. i felt that had circumstances been different i would’ve continued the pregnancy and somewhat regretted getting so involved with someone who in all reality didn’t care too much about me. i saw him again after my three week check-up and after i cried in his arms for an hour i told him i couldn’t see him again. that was a few weeks ago and we see each other in passing but we don’t acknowledge each other. my depression has subsided and i’m doing a lot better now. i’ve come to terms with the changes that my body went through and come to accept that ultimately i made the right choice for me.