i was 26 years old when i had my abortion. i was a single mom to a 3 year old and i had a full time job and my own place. i would have had no 世界杯赛程2022赛程表中国 adding another child to my life. i’d been divorced almost a year and the first man i dated after my marriage ended was controlling and abusive. i had nightmares that if i didn’t leave him that one day he’d murder me.

we’d broken up and gotten back together many times and he’d apologize and be wonderful and i’d forgive. finally after a year together i broke it off for good, keeping my promise to myself to never go back. three weeks later i found out i was pregnant.
i was broken. i did want another child. but i knew i’d go back to him because i’d need the help. and i couldn’t. i wouldn’t do that to that child but honestly to the child i already had. i had to think of her.
so i had the abortion. it was painful yes but i told myself it was for the best and i could finally break from that abusive relationship.
sometimes the memory is hard but whenever i start to wonder about the baby that never was i see his face and the terror returns and i know i made the best decision for myself. because now when i look around my life he is long gone, and my daughter and i are safe.