i got pregnant shortly after my mother lost her grueling battle with als. it was a long, draining and emotional process that left me severely depressed and fragile.

i had two small children at home and a loving husband but had lost my will to take care of them. i broke in to tears at the gynecologist telling her i was not able to handle another baby and worried it would drive me to suicide. she made me feel even more inadequate, telling me other people do it and it would be fine. i love children and this situation was all too horrible to consider. i went to a different doctor for the abortion, with my husband at my side. it was a difficult decision but it allowed me to recover my mental health and become a loving mother again.