i was in college and had one crazy weekend with a guy leaving for the army. found out i was pregnant and had a “no guilt” abortion.

one year later, i became pregnant by my long time boyfriend. he wanted me to have an abortion but i did not want one. we went to a counselor who said no matter the outcome, i would never forgive him for his position. i decided to have the abortion, knowing it would end the relationship. however, i did not recover as quickly this time. one night, all alone in my house, i went into labor and delivered a dead fetus in my bathroom. i had been pregnant with twins and only one was aborted. this has haunted me for 35 years. i have a daughter who i fiercely love. i would never want her to have an abortion. it was the worst thing i have ever done in my life and i can never forgive myself.