i’ve always been pro life. i value my christian beliefs. i believe that god creates and knows each of us in the womb.

in a long term relationship, and a perfectionist about taking my birth control pills, i was shocked to find out that i was pregnant. i still feel shocked and frustrated.

i feel like a majority of the stories i read are people who got pregnant very young, or in a less than desirable situation. my boyfriend and i are both in our late 20’s. we are bright, passionate and thoughtful people invested into our community. we are in love! we had a plan to get engaged. we have great educations and jobs. when i told him that i was pregnant he was supportive and caring and processed everything with me.

we wanted different things. i wanted to cherish the life i felt growing inside of me. he wanted to stick with our plan. we were both afraid of disappointing our families. ultimately i decided to get an abortion. while i was ready to be a mother, he was not ready to be a father. unfortunately, one can not come without the other.

i had a medical (pill) abortion at 5 weeks. the stories that are available online vary greatly- my personal experience is that it was indescribable pain. i felt so much shame and guilt and sadness. i felt resentful towards my boyfriend and disappointed with our situation.

i felt really alone in the process. i had the support of my boyfriend, but was afraid to share my situation with friends or family. i wanted to put my story out there, so that if anyone was able to relate they would know that they are not alone.

abortion isn’t always the answer. i wish it wasn’t my answer. however, i am so thankful for the opportunity to choose and i know that my relationship, and my future family will be better because of the sacrifice i made now.

to those who believe in pro-life… thank you for standing up for what you believe. i feel that beliefs change with knowledge and experience. i never thought i would have an abortion. i did. with my current knowledge and experience – i greatly value a woman’s right to choose.