i was newly married and terrified when i became pregnant. i was unsure of my relationship and had come from a dysfunctional family that i was afraid to recreate.

i knew that i was not ready to be a mother yet. though my husband would have been a willing father, he understood that it was not something i could handle at the time. i had an abortion. since then i have had two wonderful boys who i might not have had had i gone through with the first pregnancy. i never regretted my decision.
i would never have gone through with the pregnancy and given the child up for adoption. i have seen two tragic adoption scenarios, and i find it interesting that adoption is portrayed as a beautiful option. i believe adoption can be as traumatic for some as an abortion is for some and as i have witnessed, not all children who are adopted live happy lives.