i was 18 years old. i had just graduated high school. it was my summer vacation before college. i can distinctly remember when i figured out i was pregnant.

i was babysitting and became really nauseous while swimming. instantly, i knew i was pregnant. i made an appointment with my doctor. she came in with the results and from the look on her face, i knew i was. i broke down in tears. i knew my parents were going to be disappointed as much as i was disappointed in myself. i was the second in my family to go to college. my parents were looking for me to be the first to actually finish. i paged my “boyfriend” at the time. i was crying and upset and he im世界杯2022亚洲预选赛b组 tely figured it out. first thing he said was, “make an appointment, you are going to school, i can’t let this stop you from going to school.” going to church every sunday and lying to everyone about why i was sick was the hardest thing i have ever done. my appointment was on my sister’s birthday, august 18th. my “boyfriend” picked me up. he tried to make jokes, but, i wasn’t in the mood. everyone at planned parenthood was incredibly nice. i went thru without feeling much pain. one of the nurses held my hand, the doctor talked me thru it. i felt pretty guilty afterwards. it’s crazy because two years later, i became a legal guardian for my niece. this year i was diagnosed with stage 3 endometriosis. in some ways, i feel like it’s a punishment because i may not be able to have children now at the age of 33. but, my faith is strong. if it is in god’s plan, i will be blessed with another biological child of my own.